Just for Today

Just for today, I am not OK

Autumn's beauty empty to me;

The sun, aching bright, so cold.

All around me lost and lonely

Leaves fall, no last blaze of glory, 

But tattered, decayed confetti.

Just for today, I am not OK

I crack with the puddled ice.

Knife sharp air cuts at my face.

There is no comfort here. 

Just for today, I am not OK

I will allow myself to feel

The weight of ages crushes and I fall.

I am not OK. 

And tomorrow I shall pick myself back up

put melancholy in its little box.

Put down the memories and find my thankfulness.

Tomorrow.